I think I left MSU at just the right time. God really does know what he's doing, even though most of the time I have no clue what He's up to, sometimes he gives me a little glimpse. In "Tossed by The Wind" Jimmy Needham sings about a boy who went off to college with a "curse for his thirst for the wisdom of men." I think I was coming dangerously close to crossing that line of thirst for the wisdom of men. Not that its bad to be well educated, but it is bad when I turn my focus from the God of the universe to the study of african religions, Buddhism, and Islam. I've actually caught myself a couple times thinking "well, that sounds really good and helpful, I could incorporate that into my 'religion'" which is totally not what God wants for us. As I was sitting in Barnes and Noble today I had the chance to read some buddhist lit or some Zen stuff, it was really tempting, but I just felt like I'd be pouring poison into the "pure spiritual milk" I've been trying to feed on. I think I have been walking dangerously close to the line of adultery. I know its ridiculous but I feel like if I read the "Tao of Pooh" today it would have been as dangerous to my relationship with God as cheating on my husband would be.
I'm fascinated by other religions and cultures. Why am I so easily caught up in things and pulled to the extremes? Anything that's unknown makes me want to explore, anything that's a challenge makes me want it more. Going SBU next semester is going to be really nice, I don't have to keep any guards up and I can freely dive head first into everything I'm studying cause it won't be a search for the wisdom of men, but the wisdom of God everyday.
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