Wait, what?

From time to time I have these moments of realization when I just look at my life and say "wait, what???" 3 months ago if someone would have asked me if I had any clue how to take care of a baby I would have said "no way!" But somehow for the last 2 months I've been taking care of 2 babies and they're still doin ok I think. As I was realizing this the Holy Spirit started whispering to me...This is what God wants to do with you...When I volunteered to be a nanny I didn't stop and think about my abilities or what I could be missing out on, I just saw a need and asked if I could meet it. God came in and used me, he taught me patience and made me into the person these boys needed. When I think about ministry I still get scared and listen to all the doubts in my mind, but all God wants is for me to see a need and go meet it. When I don't question, or doubt or focus on myself He is able to move. I'm praying that all the transitions in my future will be as easy as college student to nanny was...I kinda doubt thats possible, I know I'll get in the way. But it would be pretty sweet.