"Do I stay or do I go now"

97% of the world's trained ministers serve 3% of the world's population.  That is 97% of the world's trained ministers are right here in the USA.

70% of Kenya is under 21 years old...talk about youth ministry opportunities.

I miss Africa a lot.

Once a month I have to go to this meeting for a scholarship that I get.  Tonight the speaker that was there was a missionary from Kenya.  Just when I think I'm starting to figure out that I really am supposed to be working with youth in the states I hear a sermon that gets my heart on fire again, longing for the people of Africa and Guatemala and Mexico. I'm so torn right now.  Its ok though, I know what I'm supposed to be doing up till the end of May and thats good enough (or so I'm trying to convince myself).  I know one thing for sure, I changed a lot during my two years away.  Its weird being back hearing the traditional old school southern baptist preachers sayin stuff like "Beloved let us pause for a moment to pray for our benediction..."  Its very tempting to slide right back into the cycle of church ministry that I was raised in.  Youth ministry could be super easy if you just go through the motions, put in your 40 hours and then call it good for the week.  But that it what's gotten us to where we are today with 51% of youth pastors saying their students aren't getting to know Jesus at church and 38% of Christian youth saying if you're good enough you can earn your way to heaven.  If I'm staying in the states I refuse to lead a ministry that produces anything but sold out disciples.