God definitely knows how to get my attention. I think its cool how he understands each one of us so deeply that he knows the little things he can "tweek" in our lives to really make a point. Yesterday, God brought out a physical manifestation of the state of my soul for me. It was not pretty. I eat every three hours and normally I'm not even hungry between meals. But for the past couple days and especially yesterday I've been really hungry. Yesterday was really bad, like I'd eat and an hour later feel like my stomach was eating itself. So I text my friend who knows a lot about dieting/food stuff and his suggestion is to eat more protein, sounds easy enough.
Later that night I'm at a campus worship service in Springfield and as I'm hearing Alan preach I get this longing in my soul and just start thinking "I'm so starving!" Only this time its not my body, its my spirit. And then there was this gentle "you're right!" I've been living off of shallow Bible readings in the mornings and mandatory chapel services and church involvement but the energy from that "milk" quickly gets used up and I'm left on empty. I need more protein, I need to start living in maturity and take the initiative to feed myself meat! Next week I'm going to figure out what church I'm committing to and I'm going to get involved because I want to grow, not because I have to for school, and, I'm going to start doing real Bible study, digging in deep and wrestling with the word, not just getting a nice little thought for the day. God's the ocean deep, I've been in up to my knees, I am wanting desperately to drown!
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