Moses

One day Moses said to the Lord, “You have been telling me, ‘Take these people up to the Promised Land.’ But you haven’t told me whom you will send with me. You have told me, ‘I know you by name, and I look favorably on you.’ If it is true that you look favorably on me, let me know your ways so I may understand you more fully and continue to enjoy your favor. And remember that this nation is your very own people.”

The Lord replied, “I will personally go with you, Moses, and I will give you rest—everything will be fine for you.” Exodus 33:12-14

I can totally relate with Moses in this passage! He's going on a journey with God and he starts thinking, "wait a minute, I have no clue what's going on here! How is this going to work?" So he goes to God and says "Hey God, if what you are saying is true then let me know what you're up to so I can understand it and find joy on this crazy journey." God does not reply with anything to help Moses understand, he just says "Moses I'm going to be with you, everything will be fine."

On my own crazy journey with God I've asked for understanding so many times. As a kid, rather than making up things to play I would pretend I had an orphanage and plan, organize, and make budgets. I love having understanding of how things could work. But just like Moses, God has never granted me understanding when I've asked for a glimpse of what he is up to. And then, I start to lose my joy.

I need to learn a thing or two from Moses. God, the creator of the universe, tells me I don't need to understand, I just need to know that he's there with me. I HAVE to learn to let that be enough. Moses got it, as the story continues he says, "ok God, just promise you'll be with me! And let me see more of you!" Instead of losing my joy and freaking out that I don't understand I've just got to throw myself at God and say, "you're all I've got, give me more of you!" As Beth Moore puts it "the healthy child of desperation is devotion." In my time of desperation rather than obsessing about what I don't know my devotion to God has got to grow.

Even though I don't understand what's going on in my life right now I've got to believe Psalm 33:4 and 11 "For the word of the Lord holds true, and we can trust everything he does...The Lord’s plans stand firm forever; his intentions can never be shaken." God knows what's up, I don't have to know.