Random thoughts

Its always when I feel that God is being silent that I realize my life is chaotic and God's right where he always has been, I just haven't been listening.

I had a chance to apply for what would be pretty much the sweetest job ever. I was encouraged to apply so I started praying about it. I pretty much started freaking out. I was laying on my futon almost in tears when it all started becoming very real to me that this really is my future. I really am going to be a missionary, I really am going to be taking risky jobs and be called on to lead, God really is going to use me. Its scary, I don't feel prepared, I have 100 excuses why I'm not the right one. But for some reason I'm still divin' in. I think a job in an established church might be too tame for me... Maybe I'll be a church planter the rest of my life? Only God knows... I didn't apply for the job, God has shown me where he is at work here in Springfield and I am joining him here. He knows better than I do what the "sweetest job ever" for me will turn out to be.

Crazy Love by Fancis Chan is pretty great

I can't wait to: go to Silver Dollar City this week, go for a long bike ride with Matt, buy something to wear for my tri, to start school